Sleepless.......

Just woke up from absolutely horrible nightmare. I think a big part of it is that it's so close to the anniversary of Butch's death, It just reminds me how much I miss him.    I actually had to call and wake up Deanna just to hear a familiar voice.

I'm sitting here in bed, surrounded by my fur babies, including Avalon who is home from her sissies (much to her disgust). I love them all, and I know they love me.....and most times it's enough.  But there are times when I reach down expecting Butch to be there and the loss hits hard.  

I'm lucky that no one has told me "he was just a dog".  Most of my friends and family feel the same way about fur babies as I do.  And I've come a long way...I can go days without thinking about him now....I can talk about him without tears at times.  But tonight's nightmare tells me that I'm no where near over his loss.  Maybe I won't ever be, or maybe it will take the same 16 years that I was blessed with him.